I’ve heard most of my life that we are only pressured as much as we can handle - so anything we face shouldn’t be impossible to overcome.  I feel like I have been especially equipped to handle the toughest and roughest situations, but even so, there are times when it feels like “the sky is falling”.

I’m no chicken little.  I doubt and have fears like we all do, but I also have what it takes to move beyond that, sort of.  Our minds play dangerous tricks on us every day.  We have our woven interpersonal relationships and support unit, but sometimes that isn’t enough.  This was true for me lately.

We all go through phases, and rock bottom, I’ve found - comes in many shapes and sizes, and  more than once in our lives.  The proverbial rock bottom we hit when we re-invent ourselves is a new experience each and every time.  Somewhere inside we are able to adjust and cope, but there is a point where we get so overwhelmed that it seems like, life could end.

I recently went through this - for maybe 10 days consecutively.  It was like rock bottom for me emotionally.  It got to the point I didn’t even feel like I could perform the necessary tasks to operate my business, or even take care of myself.  Depression.  It was another rock bottom…

It comes at the worst possible time.  A time where I have to be stronger than ever and on my feet.  Life gave me lemons.  I recall thinking I wasn’t going to be able to take much more.  I thought that SOMETHING HAS TO GIVE ASAP - OR  I WILL LOSE IT ALL.  That idea of not being faced with more than we can handle actually played it’s role again.

At the very moment I was in despair, wondering when my next break would come, it did.  It came in the form of a text message, maybe 3 sentences long.  I was laying in bed watching Hulu, nursing my fears, trying to get to sleep.  I knew that facing the next day was going to be hard, what with the feelings hopelessness.  It came when I needed it most.

It’s day three since that text message.  I’m on the up swing and new obstacles, struggles and those old fears still need dealt with.  But I feel like I have the strength to carry on, move forward, overcome.  I don’t feel so lost anymore.  I don’t feel so alone anymore.  I feel like I can take up wings and fly.  Fly I will.

With the new found hope and strength I have, I can take on what I thought I wouldn’t be able to.  With it I have new obstacles to overcome.  I have new goals, in addition to the old ones.  My new found hope gives the relief my bones need, the expression my head wants, the desire of my soul.

Just when you think the sky is surely falling - you realize it’s not.  The sky needs to be seen as infinite, because it is.  When you think it is falling - it’s a message to expand your horizons, so you can see more clearly.  When your sight is limitless, so is your life.

©myself